Im feeling rather down ever since.. TOC. I dun really know what the reason is... Its just so confusing. These problems.. always gathering back again after i try to run away from them. I tot i had them hidden away.. But it still came back.. Troublesome huh..
I would say i wan to cry so loudly but whats the point.. I want to gaze into the night sky but it would be rather pointless alone.. Haiz.. Someone just smack some sense into me..
I think about the past and the present.. The situation seems the same. Not totally but most of it.. ARGH!! I hate this SO MUCH! Anyway, i shant go on anymore.. I think im not even making sense here.. Oh well..
Signing out. Marcus :(
Is there anyone that can pull me out of my world? I wonder..
THE END!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010?
Hey blog!
Haiz.. What issit that i want. What am i doing to my life. I dunno.. There is just so many things to think about. I wish i had someone to talk to.. But ever since that incident, i cant bring myself to trust people enough to tell them my own problems.. I choose to keep them to myself.. I Choose to stay in my own world of fantasies and imaginations.. When will i ever come back to reality. I want to but to face to real fact of reality can be painful.
I had my emotions as much as i can. I dun wan people to see me as an emo kid or whatever. I used to have it on the surface but i realised people will be affected also. So yea..
But now people think, "marcus is always so happy go lucky". Thats what i want people to think. Everyday, I think.. I dunno when to say the things i need to say and do the things i need to do.. I just wait, wait and wait. Unlike many people who can get the person they like to like them back easily.. Sadly i dun have and features that are nice for anyone to see.. Fat and ugly to be precise.. Im also not good in my character in anyway, temper also not good, attitude is bad.. Wow.. Literally..
I can give advise to people to go for the people they like.. But when it comes to myself.. Im helpless and useless. Argh.. Life is just miserable.. I always say, if i have to die then, go ahead.. This world is unfair, and most probably coming to an end.. Hah..
Signing out. Marcus =)
THE END!
Tuesday, March 09, 2010?
Hey!
I have been out to chalet for 2 days now.. Well.. Things i dunno is better or worst than the first chalet. But im sure there were more activities this time round. Even with that, not all seemed happy.. I dunno.. Maybe the cost or something ba.. This chalet really costed a bomb. Not the chalet actually, its the thing for the chalet.. Haizz.. Still most people came for the bbq only.. Leaving just afew of us to cycle through the last night of the chalet.
I wasnt feeling very good this whole chalet also.. By right i should have stayed home but wats the point of holding a chalet if no one goes.. So yea i still went. Anyway the chalet was booked under my name, so not going wasnt really an option. Lol. Anyway thing will probably be the last class chalet. No time liao i think attachment and all. So.. Yea.
To me i enjoyed this chalet alot more than the previous one.. Ahahaha! But once i get home im so gonna fall asleep till dunno when. Lol. Eternal slumber sounds good. XD.
Ok then, thats all for now.. Hahaha.
Signing out. Marcus =D.
THE END!
Sunday, March 07, 2010?
HEY!!
Finally i get to post something again.. The past few days was just BUSY~~~. There was TOC on fri to sun. The results were rather great i must say.. had 2 gold and dunno how many silver. The sad thing was i didnt get any of them. LOL! i lost in the pattern team and wasnt able to spar with nigel... Oh well... So.. well done NYP TKD!!! =D.
Anyway, im wasnt really happy about losing in the first round of the poomsae competition. So.. im so going for Poomsae Nationals! They say it will be more fair there.. I wonder if its true. So i shall take part and see =D.
Ah.. Oh ya! On saturday night when i was staying at rei's house over night, we went down to kick target. Sadly and like the most embarrassing that can happen.. My pants tore and his mum had to help me sew.. Wah lau.. Dam pai seh sia.. Dam.. >.<.
Ah! and on friday i stayed over at JJ's place! Very paiseh to keep staying at people's house =.=" But bloody NTU just had to be so far.. -.-".
Hmm.. Well.. Thats all for now.. Ahahaha!
Signing out. Marcus =)
THE END!
Tuesday, March 02, 2010?
Hello!!
YAY! Finally exams ar over and now its just waiting for year3 to come.. But.. I dun think i will pass my last paper which is NT. Its the only paper i have ever encountered that i really dunno ANYTHING. Literally. So its hello Mr Nai again.. Argh.. I just think of that i will get dam sian.. Spoil mood sia..
Anyway, Competition is coming near. Have to practice more liao. From this Friday to sunday will be TOC. I wonder how it will turn out. Hopefully all goes well.. That is both in Pattern and Sparring. Like sir said you cant only like Sparring or just pattern. You will have to do both if you are in this Sport or Martial Art. So just try our best! =D.
There is another competition coming up after TOC which is the Chin Kee Shin cup. I said that before BUT! Now sir wants me to fight in Heavy weight against nigel cause of some reasons that im not too sure what issit still.. But ah well.. Just for the experience right? Lol.. I dun really have much confidence in winning. But i will try.. Even if i have the confidence.. The chances of me winning is like.. Dam slim now.. LOL!
There will be 1 more day of TKD training tmr. Hopefully my legs dun give up now.. If not im GGfied. Oh ya! I forgot! We got our Mootu Gi today! Sadly afew mistakes and now im Alex and Alex is Me.. Rayner became ryaner LOL! Oh well.. Im sure the judges wont have super eye sight. LOL! Its not as comfortable as the previous Gi probably because its not at stretchy BUT it looks dam cool! With our names and other logos on it..
Ah well.. I wanna practice more on piano but.. AHH!! Need more time! TOC is coming and im so bloody stress now even though its after exams.. So many things to do =.=". Haiz.. Ok then.. Thats all for now =D
Signing out. Marcus =)
THE END!
Monday, March 01, 2010?
Heylo!
Today i can finally relax at home after the the previous few days which was like... hell =.=". There was exams and TKD training. My legs dunno why aching like crap also.. Anyway, the match between me and nigel seemed to have continued.. Thou, i dun really know whats the reason. But I shall try my best.. Even thou the chances of winning is almost none... At least i tried ba(i think)...
Hmm, Ah! Left 1 more exam which is on tuesday!! Woo! Finally man.. The last paper of this sem and its over at long last.. Worst sem so far sia.. Haiz.. So i shall get started tmr XD. Usually people will study few days ahead but i dunno why my book wont open one.. LOL! XD.
Hmm... Oh, Seems like i have to take part in another TKD competition liao.. Chin Kee Shin Cup. But this time as middle weight and not heavy so it is a MUST to go down... Cause mdm signed me up as middle liao.. So if i dun meet it.. It will be DQ. So.. Yea. Another 2-3 kg ba.. Then will be a safe weight. Time to struggle! XD.
Ok, Thats all for now =D
Signing out. Marcus =)
THE END!
Seems like things changed...
Personal Message
The cursed fate,
of the middle child..
The dark hidden truth.. No one knows the real me.
No one ever did.
Its best to keep things
that way..
Profile
I am Marcus
currently 19
Live in Seng Kang
Studying in NYP now
Single hor!
Slim down =.=
Do well in Poly
Wait for a certain someone
Sleep early and wake up early!!
Save money and get $100 Gundam model!
Stop being such a worry head!!
Peace for people around me..
Go to USA six-flag Theme park!!
Never get angry
Animes Recommended by me =D
**Bleach**
**Naruto**
**One Piece**
**Fairy Tail**
**Kateyo Hitman Reborn**
**Lyrical Magic Nanoha**
D. Greyman
Gundam
Fate/Stay Night
Elemental Gelade
Flame of Recca
Kaze No Stigma
Night Wizard
Soul Eater
Rental Magica
Warning!!!
All this are mostly
magic related animes.
=D
